on and on

sometimes I find myself very stubborn and close-minded. sometimes I ask myself why I am the way I am; who we are depends on who we were and I often find myself boggled down by my past. I am myself because it’s the only way I know. these days I am looking for myself by doing things Isabelle would never do, or by doing things Isabelle hates or Isabelle had avoided or stopped doing. I’m making a retrospect of 23 years of Isabelle. I need a challenge.

Recently, I realized that I lack a certain amount of common sense. I waited for M on MSN the other day to ask if he wanted to hang out but he didn’t come so I went to bed. When I woke up, I saw him online and told him I waited for him yday… then he asked me why I didn’t text him instead; truth is, the thought hadn’t even crossed my mind…

aiya…

~ by alittlefish on June 27, 2009.