weight consciousness

I don’t like my sister. I don’t like to affiliate with her, mention her or be with her. I don’t want to be like her. My biggest drive in life is to be the exact opposite of my sister, my mom and my dad. God forbid that one day I’ll spend 8 years watching TV, give up all my dreams, quest for knowledge and settle for a lifetime of nothing, counting every penny. Being single and unmarried at 35… you have the regular woman’s dream to be married, raise children… the whole nine yards and yet you’re doing fucking NOTHING and you’ve been doing fucking nothing for years. You don’t put yourself out there, you barely have any friends… how do you expect to meet people?

The fact that K came today, said that he saw my sister and said: “Wow, she’s so fit!” and then fucking tell me to get tips from her to look better?! MY SISTER IS NOT BETTER THAN ME BECAUSE SHE SPENDS SO MUCH TIME CARING ABOUT HER APPEARANCE! I see her walking around naked in the apt all the time, and she’s not that impressive… trust me!

Just as I find it insulting that people think T is younger than me when he’s 36, I find it very insulting when people think my sister is just 2 to 4 years older than me… she’s fucking 12 years older than me! WE ARE NOT TWINS! What do I have to do to be fitter and younger-looking? I’LL FUCKING GO TO THE GYM EVERYDAY, THAT’S WHAT!

~ by alittlefish on November 9, 2008.