all illusions shattered

it’s hard for me to believe that you’re already done your life. you’ve settled, you’re done. you think your life peaked at 18, but you’re doing nothing. how could you already be done? if you hadn’t broken all ties with me after my accidental TMI, I might be in the same dead end as you. I’ve changed and evolved so much in the past 5 years and you’re still using the word fag as an insult. you still think being a wigger is funny…

“this is your life, are you who you wanna be?” – Switchfoot

one must be relentlessly unsatisfied and driven to pursue their lives… I have miles to go before I sleep, and I understood that in life nothing is permanent. sometimes I’m afraid to start something because it will end but I still challenge myself.

knowing you had pushed me to go to shows, learn how to drive, and go to Boston. you’ve introduced me to ridiculous music and have taught me to a happier person and find pleasure in the tiniest, most transient moments of life. and in return, I had given you all you needed to move away from Canada. fair tradeoff? who’s to say?

all I know is that I’m disappointed in you and the decisions you’ve made. you had so much talent and potential, and you just wasted it.

~ by alittlefish on October 7, 2008.