I have bad taste in men…
I know that, because after a while, I look at my life in bafflement. I always fall for the same guy – to the point where I am almost BORED TO TEARS. You think you’re so different: avant-garde, postmodern, minimalist, abstract, experimental, unconventional, innovative, progressive, cutting edge, bizarre, odd, strange, unfamiliar, deconstructive, fascinating, outstanding, WEIRD, revolutionary, original, poetic, contemporary, modern, aggressive, bold, extreme, liberal, groundbreaking, anarchist, but you’re not. You’re simply not.
You think you’re so interesting, because you’ve got everyone’s attention. But sometimes I’m bored, and I’m sorry if I bore you, too. We’re too different to mesh, and you spend too much time getting fucked to be realist. So, you know, fuck me or fuck you. ‘Cause it always ends with me feeling this way. So, please, give me a new “type”.
I totally feel what you’re saying. Been there, done that & dont’ know how to stop, but trying to change it and the “type” to get better results. They say the definition of “insanity” is to keep doing the same thing and expect different results. The defintion of “relationship insanity” is to date the same “type” of guy and expect a different outcome, i.e. results.
If you’re looking for a new type, from what I’m now learning, you have to go to the source of the problem…YOU. What’s going on in your head that you keep picking crappy guys??? From what I’ve read, we women pick crappy guys that mirror back to us our own negative beliefs about ourselves, love and relationships. And in order to change our type, we have to change our negative internal messaging first. We have to fix what’s broken with us before we can even begin to have a healthy relationship, which is a long and painful process, which I’m now learning.
Here’s a great website that’s helping me a lot:
http://www.baggagereclaim.co.uk/